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Didn’t you ever find it creepy while we dated?
I mean…
You were 14 and I was 17 at the time.
That’s a pretty large age gap.
Thinking back, it’s pretty fucking weird that I was ever in love with you in the first place.
A few years older, and I would have been a pedophile.
So I’m kind of glad you dumped me for no reason ‘cause
I don’t have the heart to tell people
     Oh it’s not what you think!
     It’s not a three year difference – it’s a…2 ½ year difference. Not the same…

2.
Don’t you ever find it weird that we kept our relationship so low-key?
None of our closest friends knew we were ever together.
We would talk a hell of a lot about each other with them
But we never once mentioned we were dating.
We only met with each other after school
And I would tell my parents that I was going to meet up with “friends”.
The only proof that you were ever part of my life
Is the picture of the panda cookies you once gave me that I have as my IPod background
I haven’t had the heart to get rid of it.
Even though it hurts me every time I look at it.
We also have that one fucking awkward conversation we had on Facebook after our breakup.
Every other one I have since deleted,
Lost as a wandering electron on some server in Cali.
The only reason I knew they went down is because
I found a bunch of screenshots of our early conversations. Don’t ask.

3.
Speaking of pandas…I’m not a fucking panda.
It’s because of you that my high school friends call me that.
We use to be twins, and I use to boast about it.
But we’re over now and I don’t want to be a panda anymore.
I just want to be Dylan.

4.
For the first time since the break up
I could admit that I don’t hate you.
Rather, quite the opposite.
I miss you.
I miss your stupid smile,
The way that one bundle of hair curled the opposite way from the rest of your bangs.
The way you spoke with a mixture of a Chinese & francophone accent,
The way you would pluralize stuffs for no damn reason.
Yes, I miss you.
But I don’t want you back with me.
Never again.

5.
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry for being over-protective & jealous.
For getting angry at you for my own insecurities.
I’m sorry for accusing you of things you never did.
For saying that I would kill your future boyfriend.
For saying I would cut his throat if I ever saw you two together.
‘Cause at the time, I couldn’t imagine you with anyone else
But me.

6.
I’m doing fine now.
Even though our candle was short lived.
It burned the brightest I have ever seen.
And I’m sure I will see brighter days when the time is right.
But right now, I’m trying to find myself.
‘Cause I barely know who I am
And how could you love someone else if you don’t love yourself.
And I try every day to do just that.
And it’s getting better.

7.
I think…I might like this new girl…and she reminds me of you.
Not the way you two look.
Okay…both of you are short but that’s not the point.
Both of you are awkward around people
You’re both weird in ways I wish I could be.
You are both comfortable in your respective skins
Which makes me comfortable around both of you.
So it leaves me wondering….if I only like her, because I want to get back at you.

8.
I will never forget May-June 2013.
You don’t have to stop talking to me to make that happen.
I know you are doing it to help me.
And yourself.
But it’s never happening and I don’t want it to happen.

9.
I didn’t quit badminton because my schedule was too full.
I quit badminton because I wanted to avoid you.
I wasn’t ready to face you back in September.
I felt like if I saw you again
I would fall for you again.
I could proudly say I no longer feel that way.

10.
Fuck you.
A love poem. As honest I could possibly be.

It's something she'll probably never see and I guess I'm okay with that. Life moves on, and it doesn't bother me too much anymore. We've both found better people in our lives, it worked out for the better.

EDIT: She ended seeing it, when I sent it to someone else on Facebook. Haha. She messaged me about it later. Her response was in a similar format to how I wrote it, and it was just as heartfelt as I wrote it. Thanks for that. 

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Sakura-Yotobari Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is beautiful, may god bless you with good fortune <3
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2014  Student Artist
Thanks :)
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lexirious Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Amazing writing.
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2014  Student Artist
Thank you :)
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lexirious Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome :D
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2014  Student Artist
..Ha.
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MrLostInTime Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013
Amazing writing, and so true. I mean, you become this whole different human being in a relationship and when it ends, especially long ones you dont know what you're anymore or what you could do. Worst part is, it just ends. There's never a good explanation nor second chances, it just dies of a heart attack. Leaving you and her utterly distorted and weak.
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Student Artist
Thanks :) 

My ex actually ended up seeing this(I didn't send it to her), she sent to a me a response to it on Facebook, she wrote "The girl saw it, she took the time to read read it and made sure to suffer alone" with an attached word doc with a poem in a similar format to this in French.
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MrLostInTime Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013
Yeah I saw the comments :)

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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2013  Student Artist
Ahh okay! :P
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mydragonzeatyou Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Is the person you like now who I think it is?
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Student Artist
It might be. I personally think it's pretty obvious.
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mydragonzeatyou Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
If it's who I think it is I'm sorry to announce you have competition.
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Student Artist
I'm too absorbed in what I want to do with to care anymore.
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mydragonzeatyou Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You can't keep going like this. One day you're goign to have to get a social life. I understand art is important, but the rest of life is important too.
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Student Artist
To be completely honest, most days I like Art more than I like people in general.
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mydragonzeatyou Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I used to hate people. Now that I feel better I'm so attached to them it gets kind of painful. I want them all to be happy, and that doesn't really happen (not all at the same time). And then I feel like my insides are being torn apart.
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Student Artist
I don't hate people, I'm just obsessed over art.
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Akai-karasu Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is beautiful and sad an relateble for a lot of people I guess. The honesty makes it very real in a way.
(Though about the age gap, it could be worse so don't worry, it was 5 years for me with my first boyfriend when I was 15 and I couldn't have cared less even though my parents were not thrilled at all.)
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Student Artist
Thanks :) And I suppose. :P I personally found it uncomforting.
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Akai-karasu Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
that's understandable, I think, when you're the older part of it. :)
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flubaphone Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
The pain in this is so real. I absolutely love it. Fantastic job. 
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Student Artist
Thanks :)
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WorldWar-Tori Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013   General Artist
I wrote something very similar to this a few months ago, I understand this feeling so very well.
It gets better, it might not ever go away, but it gets better. Soon hours without thinking become days and days become weeks and then it just gets better.
:huggle:
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Artist
:) Thank you.
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WorldWar-Tori Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013   General Artist
you're welcome :heart:
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Bboy-Theory Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
This is a great piece of work and I can relate to this quite well :( Too much feels for me to hold haha
You deserve this fav brother
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Student Artist
Thanks :)
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bry4971fy Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
This holds so much meaning, and it's quite emotional too. Sometimes (and this is a little off topic) when I'm feeling down or upset about something I tend to write songs about how I'm feeling. I find that speaking about it is so much harder than expressing yourself through the poem or song :) 






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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Student Artist
I don't know...I just like to create. I don't really think to hard on what form I'm going to write something in before writing it...I just write it.

If I'm near a piano or a guitar, it'll probably end up being a song; if I'm on a the bus and I come up with a clever pun, it'll probably turn into a poem. If there's a story I really want to tell, it'll turn into a screenplay or a short story, depending on my mood. 

I like doing a lot of things. 
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GwenChan1 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
I really agree with #1, 2, 5, 9, and 10. Although I'm the girl in this situation, it was he that was older than me, he who broke up with me. I really get what you mean by keeping the relationship low-key and accusing each other of things, and often I go the long way to avoid him. Thank you so much for understanding/relating to me :)
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Student Artist
lol In our situation, we live completely separate lives now, since we go to different school. Even in the same city, you often won't see the same people ever again. 

She didn't really blame me of anything, it was all me. lol She actually saw this, surprisingly, and wrote back a 700 or so word poem back to me. It was in the same general format, at point she wrote(translated from French):

I don't hate you.
I have never hated you.
I will never hate you.
You hated me.
You hate me less.
You won't hate me.
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Lassmichnicht Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm sorry about this... I've written some pretty deep stuff about my ex's, but I don't think I've ever written anything so heartfelt. I may be some random stranger, but I'm here if you need to talk.
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Student Artist
Honesty is key. 

Thanks, but I'm fine now. :)
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Lassmichnicht Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Well, that's good to hear. :3
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adalabada Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
i crie every tiem
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Student Artist
My ex actually ended up seeing this today accidently, 'Cause I send it to someone the link through a Facebook comment since they asked about it.

I got bummed out, to say the least. :p
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Elvenn Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013
this is so real...and...wow...

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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Student Artist
Thank you! :)
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Asterlia Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Student General Artist
This is both sweet and heartbreaking. I applaud you for your honesty. Not many guys would probably be able to admit some of the things in this poem :)
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Student Artist
I believe in absolute honesty.
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WaterFaerieNaomi Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Good job. :) And number ten, I can certainly say, I was not expecting. XD
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Student Artist
I'm awesome like that. Hahaha

Thanks.
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WavAngel Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Student General Artist
beautiful progression of emotions, colorful, realistic, creative; i guess i'm just surprised you got it down to 10, because after being in love, its really, really hard to get it down to 10 haha!Giggle 
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Student Artist
I'm good like that haha


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muribo Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Hobbyist
I can relate to it so much, it's awkard xD
But amazing work! c:
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Student Artist
Thanks :)
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bavaria44 Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013
I wish I read this 8-9 years ago...
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DylanSeto Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Student Artist
I'm Glad you Enjoyed it :)
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